Semi Upset..@.@!

Lately i've been feeling so upset and angry sometimes..
life use to be so easy~
whenever i want something it somehow works out in the end
but ever since last month..
when i was at the bar..until now...
things are jz so complicated..
for example...when i wanna change my shift..
its like NO! or change to some weird shift..like 4-12am..
when the van alrd left..so F*CKED up
and lately ppl have been pushing my buttons!
they jz keep walkin all over me..
when i was in 1885..
every1 was nice exept another trainee.
who is frm anther college..
he jz kept ordering us to do this n do that...
hated that moment..n jz totally fought back..let him do it himself
now i'm currently in lone pine hotel..
stupid place..n again~ same shit..
diff shifts..manager wit a bad attitude..staff backstabbing each other...
wad the hell happened to the world man~
laz time when someone steps all over me..something bad will surely happen to them
but now its like nothing~
dunno wad happened la..felt as though someone jz stole my luck or something
really F-up
n there is absolutely nothing i can do but to endure this suffering moments
there's nobody out there to save me..
i've tried every option...ignoring..fighting back..talkin to the manager
haihhh...but sadly nth seems to go my way anymore..
at one point i assume i was jz unlucky n mayb the following week will b better
but no..nth seems to change..
i wanna smile..
i wanna be happy
i wanna laugh
i wanna feel comfortable
but wad the FU*K can i do?
the only thing i can do is endure this 3 weeks
n enjoy my holiday...
jz gotta let it out..n jz suffer through la
hmm..me n my friends plan to accumulate our off days and put them at the very end
so originally our holiday starts at the 14th december
but now since we plan to work 11 days straight....
we end our trainin at 11th december!!
sounds great ei~
haihh..kinda wished that i could be mature and realize that there are all types
of ppl out there..n there's nth that can be done..
jz gotta adapt and grow in that environment n help those that actually need help..
be mature..stop whining about certain things that don't go your way~
hmmm....easier said than done
hahaha...

gotta go~ byebye^^

Frustrated

Its been awhile since my last post
kinda busy lately..workin the afternoon shift
currently, in a new dept
fnb~ 1885
juz dunno y i cant b happy and b myself
feeling so down most of the time...
mayb coz every1 is so serious...
wad to do..fine dining ma
really missing the other dept rite nw
haha...miss housekeeping! PR! FO!
at least nt so stressful..
really cant wait till its all over
anticipating my freedom~!!
need to b on "auto-pilot"
going through everyday without a care..
bt dunno y jz cant seem to "fly"
save me~ @@

haizzz...gotta relax..
n take it easy
no point getting upset
okay la..its time for bed~
nite nite